did i ditch like a bitch???

ummie:

tell him u wanna focus on your studies

me:

but what about syazwan??

ummie:

tell him the same thing-lah

me(monologue)

i mean what if he knows bout syazwan la mommie...

eina princesszel

(gave lotsa lotsa advice...TOO much..)

alyf halms

saipa ni...klu aku la kan, p la carik yg len, pa susah

translation:whats up? if it were me, i'd look for others.lolx

(accompanied by a thick penang accent)

aina-sistahood neva die:

but do you LIKE him???(how thotful of her)

me:

i like u

very very much

as a brother

hmmm

and as i lied on my bed

thinkin

i heard the song

heartbreaker

will.i.am

am i??

a heartbreaker

hope he recovers soon

i'm sorry

i'm taken

and i

i cant accept u

cuz i aint good enuff

neva good enuff

it aint u

its me

schuGErdelique PsyChedElic

sesuka ati jaa engkau kutuk aku!!! apa engkau fikir aku tidak punya mak bapak???

wow.emo sebentar. but that's what i have always been lately. one word; three letters : EMO
and i don't know why..
and when i broke down because i've been missin u too much
i now sth is aint rite with me

schu, schu, schu
kenapa kau cepat sgt breakdown ni???
schu, schu, schu
stop cryin
mesti syazwan marah klu dia tau
kau nangis

i cant tell u why sweetheart
lately
manyak sgt masalah
drivin me nuts
dgn assignments lagi
tensionnyer

and all the sleepless nights
me
thinkin bout u
bout home..

home
home
home

kat umah masalah lagik
i dont know
whats wrong
and i cant tell
why married couples
wud hate each other after 20 years??

shoppin wiv Ummie
(schu + ummi + shopping= inseparable)

n i wud listen to her
as we drove around
as faithfully
as how syazwan wud listen to
me cryin
me sobbin
on the phone
in our late
midnyte calls

now how
tell me
how
do i stop all the pains
do i stop all the tears
from flowin

missin him
n
missin home
and the sad part is
i love not bein at home
that way
i wudnt have to listen
i wudnt have to know
their PROBLEMS
bein away in college
i forgot all that
i have friends
who cheers me up

but when Ummie calls
and told me her problems
their problems
i cant help it
i wish i'm home
but now
i'm sittin in my room
at home
cryin

i am the girl who fell in love with you....

unseen poem by an unseen poet

schu zephyr-giggs

I am the girl who fell in love with you

I wonder do you feel the same way too

I hear your voice lingers around my head all the time

I see your face everywhere; every time

I want you to be here by my side; always

I am the girl who fell in love with you

I pretend that I do not know you

I feel like an idiot; this unrequited love

I touch the tears that flow down my cheeks

I worry if you don’t love me as much as I love you

I cry my heart out when I’m missing you

I am the girl who fell in love with you

I understand that we can’t be together now

So far apart, the blue sea and the green paddy field

I say to myself, “Someday, nothing will keep us apart”

You and I are meant to be

I dream of a beautiful day by the beach together, us frolicking, just you and me

I try to make our dream come true

I hope that you’ll be the one, thou I can only hope; and pray

I pray that you’ll be mine, and our eternal love

I am the girl who fell in love with you

schu

(on a sad and depressing day in 2Tesl2 classroom, where I was hungry and broke and tried to think of something beautiful…hahahahahaha)

thERE's gottA bE mOre to LIfe...

not in the mood

thERE's gottA bE mOre to LIfe...

today

not in the mood

not a good day thou

aint good enough

i miss u

i miss u

more n more each day

and i'm missin the days we spent together

and every day just a simple text from u wud mean so much

and hearin ur voice for a mere 35 seconds made me smile

all day long....

all day long....

this is the story of a girl

who cried a river and drown the whole world

when she looked so sad on a photograph

who's definitely her lover

when she smiles...

when i smile

u told me

i need some entertainment

but don't u realise,my dear,

don't u,

that u're my entertainment???

i'm missin u

missin u deep

i wanna be with u

but

there's gotta be more to life~~~

cOgnisaNce of ScHU...

coGnisance Of scHU..

u wanna know more, more more bout me...lalala(singin skye sweetnam's tangled up in me, whatever happened to her.._)

lolz...my life.one word: complicated.
my name's nurul syuhada abdullah
nurul.schu.schumi.sugar.syuhada.
hehehehehe..

schu zephyr.zephyr bcuz i love the wing, the mild refreshin breeze.
and bcuz accordin to someone i "ada angin--(literary translated: has wind--meanin i have my moods..)
there are times when i can be the sweetest gal next door, and i am pretty evil at times, too.and most of the times i am emo.down.missin someone.huhuhu.
i'm leadin a complicated life.but what is life if it aint complicated??

and i'm missin someone.

welcome to my life...